The Talislegger site went down again. I could take it as a sign that I ought to move on from the webhosting company. Or maybe I should take it as a sign that I haven’t given the space the attention it deserves.
Or maybe the site is just down.
Not everything that happens is a sign of a more grand design of things and your place within that design. Sometimes a down site is just a down site and a situation is just a situation. I will say this: I spend so much time thinking about the path to being better and the next moment of realization that I am, in a sense, paralyzed by the wait. I ought to actually be doing and working and grinding vs. sitting back and letting life move by me. Life is moving by me and I am very much standing still and hoping for a long lost inspiration to knock me into a frenzied state.
That isn’t going to happen.
It feels refreshing to say that. Now what? Writing more, I guess. And focusing on really becoming who I am meant to be vs. deciding on who that ought to be. Sounds easy. Let’s see what happens when morning rings that opening bell.
Some Thoughts:
- The daily book is going well. Waking up early is a work in progress. Habits are slowly being formed and only time will gauge the effects.
- The best word to describe me over the last forty years would be inconsistent. I’ve been thinking about what I want from my partner besides love and affection. I think the answer is to help me find my consistency.