I am closing in–again–on that precious state of mind and productivity that is oh so elusive to my ilk. I am at the end of a long hard semester and my responsibilities are shrinking. This coincides with an uptick in desire to be successful in life. I went through a well documented period of stasis when I started asking myself questions like, what the heck am I doing this for? The answer didn’t matter because the question was false, driven to the front of my thought stream by stress, distractions, and uncertainty. The fact is I lost site of the love. I let the distractions take over and turn me into someone who I didn’t like very much.
I am still lazy. That is going to take some undoing. I see the same qualities in my smarty pants 5 yr old. These are the qualities that match the slowly eroding intellect I am currently in possession of. Next week I am going to start writing about the things I learned this year, and foremost among them is that smarts are a gift that must be grown, less they shrivel and die.
Took too long to figure that out. I wonder what life could’ve been had I known sooner…