As I anxiously await word on my next paycheck some things are falling into focus. My post yesterday helped me to understand exactly where I am at. I spent some time today thinking about what is holding me back. I feel like any good writer comes from a place where there is a reliable support system behind them. I’m struggling with that, because I legitimately have one person in my life that I absolutely rely upon and that situation, while drenched in love and devotion, is complicated.
The other part of this is that I’m doing it all alone. I don’t have a partner in the home to help me handle things, and I have three kids. This is manageable, of course, but it doesn’t leave a lot of room for creative thoughts. Most of my energy is spent on the kids or maintenance. It is a tenable situation, but not forever. They are getting older and the needs are expanding.
Some Thoughts:
- My kids have a 4:30 wake up, so I ought to get to bed soon. I know it is going to be a battle to get them moving.
- I’m drained–mentally and physically. I need to lose myself in writing something.