I’ve been a wreck over the last few days. The problem started when I got back from vacation. No, actually it started that last day of vacation–the Sunday we spent quietly flipping through channels and too burned out to do much more than that. If you need proof look no further than the Monday Morning reflection this week that I wrote on a Tuesday. I had no idea what day of the week it was. I only discovered the oversight when I sat to blog a few minutes ago.
Like I said, I’ve been a wreck.
There is a great deal going on, from the recognition that I haven’t been the best version of myself as a professor for quite a few years, to the multitude of financial and living arrangement issues currently plaguing my tortured psyche. It is a lot to deal with in the few weeks I am supposed to be recharging before I dive headlong into teaching almost every day for the next 6 months.
Let me say this: The drama and stress is absolutely worth the reward. That reward is spending every day with the woman I love. That reward is, one day, a happy home and life where everything just feels right and ours.
In the meanwhile it is a lot of me trying to gain my footing after a long and wonderful vacation that helped me to forget that there is a world out there which doesn’t start with a walk along the beach, great coffee, and maybe a dip in the hot tub.