I wrote today. It felt like stretching after not stretching for a long time. I feel like it is always this way with me and the words. I try and try to fall back into the way of writing and struggle through more often than not. I honestly don’t know why anyone still supports me. I can see that support waning on the part of the ones closest to me as they have to be asking themselves if I really want this. I can feel the belief slipping and I know why. I haven’t done my part. I am not doing my part.
Some Thoughts:
- If I do go back to coaching a last season of flag football it will be phenomenal. I feel like I should give my youngest one last look and do it well. I’m talking full blown practices where everyone learns how to play every position and we battle for spots and we have fun and we go hard.
- Strange to think about a sport like football where you are openly routing for someone on the other side to get hurt. Hurt bad.