I continue to experience intermittent internet failures with the site at a rate higher than before the provider’s purchase by site5. From this I can extrapolate that site5 sucks worse than the previous host. Still, I’m paid up for quite some time that I have to bear it. Bearing it is the family theme for the night. My kids and I are all learning the important lesson of how to put up with both mediocrity and external perceptions of us that impact our ability to function. Even the youngest is facing this reality. In three seasons he’s gone from 1000 yard running back to Left Tackle. This has nothing to do with his play. By all accounts—even those of his present coach—he’s improved dramatically. Yet the way the offense works, he is not going to be in a position to do more than line. In truth, should he stay in this system, he will never do more than play line.
We have to move on. I’ve resisted it for a long time, but now I am going to give in to the real here: He’s a bad fit for the system and his learning has topped out.
All the boys are struggling in the football way. The freshman is riding the bench and is completely discouraged. The pass catcher is running routes like a maniac but hasn’t had one pass thrown his way. In reality, they see him as a running back instead of receiver. They see him as a linebacker more than a corner. Even at this young age all three boys are watching their opportunities narrow to a single point not determined by themselves. It is a rough lesson of life that I do not want to stick. I want them to believe they can do what they want if they try hard enough. I don’t find that to be naive. Instead I find it to be hopeful. That’s been missing in action for a long time.