Long day. One of the longest I’ve had this year and it is only 4:23. I’ve gone through a consultation with my mechanic, got the car repaired, help diagnose the remaining car issues, completed a full football workout with the kids we are trying to pull into a team for the fall, played games with the kids, played video games with the kids, quit a job I once loved, and now I am writing.
Speaking of the kids, my kids are being very respectful of my writing. This is not to say they no longer want my full attention. They do. Still they realize I need to write and give me the time and space to do that. What’s more is that they’ve been telling people I’m a writer and that I publish stuff. That’s a new development.
Okay seriously, I know I buried the lead deep there. It turns out I wasn’t really up to being an advisor for the honors society any longer. I don’t have it in me. I love what it brings to the students. I don’t love how I feel when I am there. They deserve someone who is about this first. They need a guy who is 100% in and is going to drop the rest of his life to handle what they need. I’m not it. I have other things going on. I was willing to lose an entire day of hanging with my boys, catching up on rest, and catching up on grading to be a convention that I did not see a ton of personal value in. I am done giving up weekends and taking trips for stuff that pulls me away from the people that matter in my life.
So what now? I don’t know. I am still focused on creating an amazing learning environment. Taking this off my plate will help narrow my focus down to the key essentials. The goal is to make the most time for what matters. And limit how much I allow to matter so I can be completely committed to what remains.