This hasn’t been the best 72 hours. Late in the evening last night I found myself examining various ‘when will I die’ websites. Most had me making it to my 60’s, which doesn’t necessarily give me a whole lot of time to live. That makes today all the worse because it feels like today was a series of mishaps building distance between myself and my partner. It is 100 percent on me. I have been making a lot of missteps in my day to day life and it feels like they always result in us loosing opportunities to be together. I could also be overthinking a bad day.
I doubt it. My instincts feel right about this—about a few things really. Feels like I’m seeing the world around me as if I’m watching myself in a movie and it’s one of those movies where you see the characters do stuff they should not and you are not able to look away.
My life isn’t quite that much of a car wreck, but if I don’t change course from having days like today it certainly will be. Take for example the fact that I am blogging in bed on my phone because I didn’t get to it today.
I suppose the real fear here is that I have the same problem putting together a day as I do with putting together a class or a life—I am solid in the first part but then it eventually falls apart.
Some Thoughts:
- Stranger Things 3 is done. Really enjoyed the 80’s callbacks and I am looking forward to season 4.
- Also looking forward to a three day weekend. Should be good times all around.