After a long day of work and training with the kids I find myself sore, tired, and still remarkably bored. Not bored in the sense of having nothing to occupy my mind or time, but bored in the sense of everything I can do feeling less than worthwhile or too great of an undertaking to attempt. This is the very opposite of the ‘sweet spot’. This is closer aligned with the rough place we all eventually get to when our world narrows and we haven’t found the proper outlet for our energies.
No, Minecraft is not cutting it. Video Games in general have not done the job for me lately. I continue to play and to briefly enjoy the distraction, but it is indeed brief. I can no longer fathom 4-12 hour gaming marathons. After 2 at most I get beat down and want to wander off to find sunlight at the very least.
What I ought to be doing is writing a novel. Once I finish this NDA project (yeah, not done) I will likely fall back into a novel… slowly.
I’m not getting a ton of inspiration from what I am reading or what I am doing on a daily work basis. That part of my life feels mundane and draining. I’m clearly dissatisfied with that much of it. Perhaps the deeper answer lies not in satisfaction or routine, but in exploration. I need to explore in some new way. I need to find the wonder.