I discovered that there certainly are things I cannot do. I used to operate on the Batman principle of ‘if you drop out of society and devote sufficient time to train for anything you can become it.’ Now I believe in the principle of, ‘ain’t nobody got time for that’
This new arrival of thought comes as I have been trying to fix the floor of the new office only to discover I made it so much worse. I cannot fix the floor. It is beyond ruined–a collection of barely linked and no longer interlocking floorboards that anger me on sight. I don’t have the ability to fix them nor the patience nor the materials. If I were to keep a floor like this in place I would have to buy entirely new flooring and then rely on the hope that I can get it right this time. No, I am going to just spend more money in a direction I know will work: I am going to pay someone who knows what they are doing to do something with these damn floors.
It is an important moment for me to realize I cannot do it all. I also recognize that I cannot afford it all and the result of that will be me falling back into a spot of debt–unless the tax situation is positive. One can only hope on that front.
Some Thoughts:
- Falling behind on the words. Way behind. I need a few serious hours in front of a screen every day in order to get back on track. I cannot do that and all the other stuff I am attempting to juggle. I am failing hard at life.
- I don’t have to keep failing, but I do need to kick into a higher gear and really get back to listing out things to complete each day and knocking them out.