Tough writing night. I’ve been dealing with the spectre of deadlines and now I find myself straining to complete a story and write a blogpost. I don’t have the mental energy to do it all this evening, so I’m going to wind up letting someone down. It is a tough deal to write, work, have 3 kids, and try to maintain a relationship–all while being in a neverending struggle to make ends meet. I’m overstressed and I don’t see an end to that in sight.
It doesn’t help matters that I’ve apparently wandered into tough territory with a friend–perhaps to the point where that friendship is now merely a familiar work relationship. I cannot say exactly what I did, but I must’ve done something to break the system there. So, I need to figure out what that is and set it right. Its funny how things ultimately boil down to the confidence to make yourself vulnerable to another human being.