I spent the last 16 days in Seattle and I’m sitting at the airport waiting to board a plane to head home. I miss my kids, but I don’t want to go home. I don’t want to swim back towards a life that is designed around people who are for the most part entitled and think first of themselves and what they have going on. We’ve been enjoying a life that is about us and I’ve been enjoying that too. I’ve been working towards creating a balance where it is not about them all the time and I have a life that is about my partner and myself, but the fact remains that I easily fall into habits and show triggers that make my personal life fall apart all too easily. If feels like that tendency denotated the last few moments of this journey and, in a sense, ruined all the progress brough about by it. That is my fault.
My sense of balance is clearly skewed.
I don’t know what to do about tomorrow or how to start focusing on a life that is not about them and more about us. I need to be a better partner and keep focus on what I am focused on and what is important in the forefront.
Some Thoughts:
- Doesn’t seem like I am long for AZ. I need to get out soon or I’m going to ruin what I have. I give it a year or two at the most. I need to get right with that fast.