For the first time I can remember I’ve decided not to work on a Shadowrun project. I don’t feel like I’m in for this one. I will probably feel differently down the road, but I am out on this upcoming book. I’m out of ideas for it. Crazy right? Maybe not so much. I’ve been doing a lot of the SR work and it is about time I stepped back for a few months and didn’t do a book. It would only present another distraction from the novel and I don’t need anything else to distract me from that project or the one that follows. I think this book needed to be zeroed out for me to reset, refresh, and learn what the new writers are trying to create with the world and also to reinvent what I’m trying to create in that same world, because I don’t have a plan. I want to get people more exposure, but no real plan. No real voice character in the sourcebook’s either, so maybe we put that on the list too.
What I am trying to do is find a rhythm and at the same time find a voice in the world outside of the RPGlands. This is largely where the need to be focused on the sci fi and fantasy stories comes from. I need to get back to thinking about these worlds and ideas that exist within me and ways to bring them to the surface. The problem with freelancing is you are writing for and about other people and other people’s stuff. It stifles your own stuff to a certain extent, and after a while you start to forget you have stuff at all…