I’ve been writing reflections for days now. I noticed it when I pulled up the blog and saw the titles of the last few. It is apparently reflection week. Tonight I want to reflect on the concept of time spent. I’ve been thinking about this a great deal as of late. Most of my time is spent with other people. I spend it with my partner or my kids or my students. My time alone is spent either writing or gaming or occasionally watching a show on my own. I think I spend a lot of time alone on some days and not much at all on others. I don’t know that I need more time alone. I don’t really argue the quality of that time either. I think where I need to improve is in the quality of time spent with other people and who those people are I am spending that time with.
I am starting to think that I will be leaving a lot sooner than I thought. I’ve gotten around to accepting that need. I’m ready to go. I’ll be able to finish this semester, which is hugely important to me, and then it is likely time to go somewhere else and start over and build a new life that doesn’t have many of the aspects of this one here and doesn’t have hardly any of the people. I’ll need to figure out a way to still be a good dad, but I am sure I can find a way to do that and still see the kids occasionally. That change is huge for me. It is something I never thought would happen, but the neccesity is there, so it is going to happen. Such is how life goes.