I believe in energy. I believe it moves through us and impacts us in ways we can feel and perhaps even see. I believe we channel it through ourselves; we guide it with emotion and the potency of our words. I am, by will, a happy and positive person—at least I used to be. I’ve struggled to feel good about myself and intend to struggle mightily in negative environments. Often on this blog I speak of the toxic nature of my living environment, of the neediness of half my kids and the laziness that infects them all. These factors and others weigh me down. All of this makes me feel like a bad father and feel bad about myself as an individual. However, all of this negative energy and negative thinking that drives that energy is making me a worse human. I see it. I feel it. I get sick more often, I’m fat. I struggle to pay attention and sustain workflow. I am doing this to myself. I know because I’m the same guy who used to be a beast of production and always happy and always coming up with new ideas.
I used to believe I could do that. Heck, I used to write better and deeper posts. So this one is about the why, and that why is energy. When I finally write the self help book ‘The Ten Minute Rule’ I’ll talk about how we are beholden to control and direct our energy towards the positive. There is no value to negativity beyond understanding how it contrasts with positive and how that contrast impacts you. Each of us have the ability to be our best or worst selves. Most of us vacillate in between because we don’t allow ourselves to control our energy and emotion. I’m going to learn how to do that. Then I’ll show you.’