Coming back into myself over the last week. A lot has happened for me personally, for my family, with the writing, etc. It feels like I needed to step away from all of it and see the ocean to reset. Did that. Drove back home through what is now being called a year’s worth of rain for parts of California. It rained so hard they shut down burning man. Rain is cleansing. Moving from the beach through the heavy storm and back into the desert was cleansing. It served as a reminder of passage and the temporary nature of what I am doing here and why I am here.
I am here to be a supportive dad for my boys. That means watching their games. That means keeping a roof over the older one’s heads so they can work and build a nest egg of income. I am here to make money so we can live the lifestyle we want to live as a couple. That means teaching classes and staying on top of the writing deadlines. I have to learn how to stay locked in on the goals whilst here and in the mode of work, so I can go hard on the mode of… not work.
I also need to work on balance within the day. I have to have outlets I enjoy but don’t ruin me. I spent the past week so mad at Madden that it impacted other areas of my life. Madden doesn’t matter, obviously, but when you want a win and all you get is hard loss, it is not fun. It feels defeating and adds to the stress.
Some Thoughts:
- So much football to be talked come Wednesday. I have stuff on for all levels from Fantasy draft to Coach prime to high school varsity to freshman. Much coming in a few days. Not sure ten will hold it.