I’ve come to realize that I am obsessed with this Starfield game to the point of conducting research in ship design even on a day when I’m at the beach. I didn’t devote a ton of time to the endeavor, but enough that as I was waiting for food I wasn’t staring out at the ocean. I’m blogging about it now as I am staring at the ocean and trying to reconcile thinking about the game and ship design. There is purpose in this—or meaning at least. I was supposed to design spaceships after I designed airplanes. That was my post pro-football plan. I didn’t even really give myself a plan B and this spent my time in college meandering until I meandered into a masters degree and a teaching career. I’d say I’m a pretty good teacher, but I could’ve been a cop or a therapist just as easily. I just happened to wind up in the classroom by no will of my own. I just wanted to write and publish..: I didn’t even think I’d make enough to live on. Not then.
All this is to say I’ve appreciated the chance to fall back into space sim and a space system I understand in terms of ship building and it unlocked a desire to be better at a number of things IN Game including designing a worthy ship. What that means to me and what it means to others is quite different. I’m building battleships that still need to muster enough velocity to maneuver effectively in combat. This is a very tall order—thus the research into weapons systems and engine dynamics and even jump capabilities as that is also impacted by weight (not weight distribution). So, I continue the thinking so that I may, this Saturday, find time to continue the work.