Day: October 4, 2023

I’ve been watching football diligently for over forty years. Never have a seen such a sad offensive line performance as I did two days ago when the Giants allowed 11 sacks against the Seattle Seahawks. Daniel Jones is rethinking that 40 mil contract as we speak. Every other potential QB in the league is thinking, “They are not for me”. This is a proper thought, because the Giants in their current state of Linemanship suck on both sides of the ball. The defense could hardly apply pressure against backup linemen and the offense flat out sucked. At this point Evan Neal is just about the worst RT in the league. However, given his strength and speed, he could be effective as a Guard. The present guards are entirely ineffective. The Giants just brought Pugh back into the fold, which could be a huge help–especially when they get Andrew Thomas back. The thought (in my my mind) would be to shift Neal inside and line up Pugh as the other guard while letting Ezedu tryout at RT and building considerably more depth with the remaining healthy linemen. This is all I have by way of a plan. The Giants otherwise seem completely hopeless. Of course, a possible solution could be to move one or more of the TEs into the backfield to provide some block/release action for an under-pressure Jones. The offense needs to adapt to the present weaknesses, and if they don’t soon we could be looking at being not-so-proud members of the Caleb Williams sweepstakes.

Some Thoughts:

1. The Giants leave me speechless. I mean, 24-3? The offense gave up most of those points.
2. Hoping the fantasy season can turn around. I finally got off the schneid in the family league by beating the equally winless future Mrs. Talislegger. So, there’s that.

Going back to Diet Days, which was published back in 2013. That is ten years removed and 23 lbs lighter than I was when I said I was heading towards 198. Now I am heading towards a wedding later this month where I no longer fit into the suit I bought to wear to it. Clearly I am trending in the wrong direction. Man I long for 216. The idea of getting to 220 fills me with a sense of wonder, so to think that 198–40+lbs lighter could be a possibility or even could have been in astounding.

Trending in the wrong direction ought ought to be the tagline for my self-evaluation and value over the past year or few. I lost my way big time and the weight gain is a clear and present reflection of that. It isn’t a ‘I need Jesus’ moment persay, but I just need to lock in on my values and pacing and figure out how to live a life that is in balance and ultimately healthy. I was not doing that back in 13′ and I am clearly not doing it now.

Instead I am living in a constant binge purge cycle of pleasures and work. I don’t have balance for a number of reasons. I truly believe the top reason is living in a space where I am not respected. As a result of that I walk around trying not to get angry and trying not voice what is wrong and not putting it in the writing for concerns of it creating more tension. Heck, even this passage could cause problems in my life. All the same, living under the umbrella of disrespect is a difficult thing to endure. Even when things feel really good in the space you always know they could turn ugly in an instant. I personally know that if that happens it won’t end well for any of us. So when you’re so busy not rocking the boat in spite of how anyone else behaves, you’re spending your mental energy focused on the impact of that and not on yourself.

It is an excuse–valid or not. I still need to find a way to do what I can under the conditions I decide to live under.