A requiem is often defined as a remembrance of an event or person or so on. I am reflecting on or offering remembrance of yet another failed fantasy season. This is two years in a row of abject failure. I definitely slipping in fantasy as I am slipping in so many other ways. Truly, the largest part of that is the inability to conjure in me any consistent discipline. I need to do better and do more in terms of really developing a life that is what my partner and I both want to be living and in that be more disciplined in devoting time and energy to what matters. It may mean ending fantasy as a practice, because I struggle with the idea of doing a thing and not doing it well. Yet this is the reality of my existence. By the time I started planning and studying for the season it was already too late. I drafted very poorly and –waivers being the most important part of the process–failed to properly research the waivers or devote sufficient time and or energy to that process through the blog.
This is a reflection of my life. This requiem extends to how I use my time and energy and the answer I find is badly.