I’m really fond of the adage, ‘you gotta read good stuff to write good stuff.’ I don’t always read good stuff. I watch very bad stuff for the most part. These could be the problems assisting in the writing of mostly mid stuff. I’m in a mindset of wanting to be better. That is a small part of what led me back to a grad program. Now I’m reading good stuff. I’m also realizing that the good stuff is already being taught by the Lady Talis, which means I could’ve skipped the entire protocol and straight up had her tell me what to read.
Takes a while to realize how much of a real one your partner is, doesn’t it?
I’m still trying to be a real one. Trying to really hold on to this lead I have on the semester as well. So far so meh. If I can knock down a ton of grading in the morning I will still be on track. It gets harder and harder with all of these other things I need to do. The class is tough. The readings, though wonderful, are demanding. Meanwhile I am working on the world map and world history for my fantasy epic. I haven’t even picked up the novel outline for the thesis I’m looking to create over the next several months.
Holding on to the lead… or just holding on? The latter feels more real to me day by day. I plan to take the weekend to gather some brief respite–some gentle time for myself to be cut out from these long days. I think that is part of why I wanted to take some personal space to have an office in our garage that is separate from the space the Lady Talis and I share. A little time for myself away from everyone else. I need it. I’m in the office alone now, as I am on Mondays. In the distance kids are watching nonsensical youtube videos and shattering the belief of aloneness. I have my headphones on with zenfenite in the background to make me feel alone. It should be working. It does sometimes. Not when the stress gets too high though.
Some Thoughts:
- Love is still my foundation. It feels good to know that.