I wanted to get this done before—who am I kidding? I was writing, got stuck, and decided to spend ten minutes doing anything else in the hopes it would eventually lead my tortured soul to some actual word progress. One minute in and it isn’t working yet. When I get stuck on a project I do a lot of avoiding that project and even more looking for similar projects for inspiration. While it may seem like copying on the surface it is in fact the opposite: I want to remind myself what not to do and what has already been done well. The project I am working on doesn’t have any counterparts that I know of, but my problem isn’t really like that. No, my problem is that I am learning a serious load of information and trying to distill that into usable fiction and ‘game’ content. Without saying much about the NDA work I can say that it is taking me through a field a science I know surprisingly little about (despite it being my original major) and asking me to generate ideas for what it will look like in the future. Not an easy task.
A task made harder by my inability to think straight for long stretches of time as of late. The semester is officially over, and I am drained. Yet I am at the keyboard busting my hoop pretty regularly to get this done right by tomorrow. My reward? I get to go back to the other work. All that is to say I love it and I am overworked. I need to invest some serious structure into how and when I create and how and when I reload because the older and busier I get, the more balance becomes a serious issue.
Some Thoughts:
- I’m ready to talk a little more about Seattle. I posted a review of the place where we tried to eat and, well, it featured the roach we watched crawling towards the food prep area. Needless to say we didn’t stay for the food. It still resonates in my mind. I used to order from that place a lot. There is something fundamentally trust breaking for me about seeing roaches in places I feel are clean and safe. Makes me itch. I dreamed of it last night and it was nearly a week ago that it happened.
- Much happiness in regards to Colorado football getting the players they need to be successful. There are a lot of people hoping Deion fails. I’m the opposite. I want him to win it all. I want him to shock the world. Go be great.
- I gotta go try to write some more…