I need to make some real changes in my life. I need to be better, as a human, on a number of levels. It hit me hardest when a fellow author posted about his life change and life experiences. Let me start with a brief history: I was born in New York City. I was raised in that high-stress, fast-paced environment with the desire to be the best at whatever I decided to do. What I decided to do/be was a writer and an academic. My fellow author (occasional co-writer) chose the same path but came to it from a different starting location. Now he is in NYC and found himself at the crossroads of being an academic and an author.
Despite enjoying my academic work, the time came to stop half-assing two jobs and to whole-ass one of them; at my wife’s encouragement I began to freelance full time in the RPG and wargame industries, because, frankly, I love it, I’m good at it, and finding work as a writer doesn’t require going back to school to finish a PhD, as seriously pursuing academia would have. ~ Zimmerman
So that is the path he chose. Yet I still am attempting to do both and in doing so finding a way to balance that and building a life with the lady Talis. I am losing badly on every single front. I am even at the point of becoming a downright bad pop. So, It is time to reset. Time to start from zero and rebuild this man from the foundation on up. No, I’m not resetting the blog. That type of symbolism would reflect me forgetting who I was. I want to keep going forward–restart from who I am, how I spend my time, who I spend it with, etc.
There has to be major change. I need to go get that MFA and put myself in a space to go that ‘other direction’ from my guy and push myself to the limits of what I can do in both areas. I already gave up a lot to be a writer. I gave up coaching. I gave up music. I don’t intend to give anything else up. I just mean to do it all a hell of a lot better.