I could have named this blog ‘zero in’ because that is the topic i’ve been dwelling on. The mantra of the summer has been ‘do the home projects you dream about’ and many of them were completed. What I didn’t–and should have–done is focus internally, working to strengthen my core in both the physical and metaphysical sense. I didn’t, because the wounds of 2015 are still very raw and change, though incremental, is yielding results.
Had a good talk tonight about the idea of making time. In reality it is more about carving out a space of the time that already exists and is devoted to other things and devoting that time to yourself. More importantly, the ‘you time’ needs to come first. Its like they say on the plane rides, ‘secure your mask first’
I believe that every step of this difficult journey towards self actualization yields a micro-change in goals and ability. I fear that too often people get so far away from who they wanted to be that they spend the time thinking about how they got there as opposed to recognizing the incredible people they’ve become.
I could no more be the person I intended to be than I could sprout wings and fly like a 2D character in a Red Bull promo. The intention was built on a limited understanding of the world and my person. The reality is a shifting miasma of identity and action.