I spend a good deal of time around people who qualify as devoted gym rats. I am not such a person in any aspect of my life. My best friend once spent hours and hours training his video game character (in a non MMO–the original Shadowrun video game in fact) just to be prepared and bad ass enough to take on the game world once he stepped out of the door of his doss. I’m not that guy either. I’m the other guy–the one who does stuff when it is necessary and apparently works as hard as necessary to complete a task. It isn’t a bad person to be, but it isn’t who I want to be.
I want to be him, in a sense. I want to work as hard, not as necessary, but as possible. More to the point, I want to want to work that hard and train that diligently and do the things needed in order to be successful. I cannot say that I did all of that in 2015. I cannot say that I will in 2016. I can say that I gained an important level of awareness of where I am at with things and how I react to the world around me. Most importantly, I figured out the good in my heart and soul… and the bad.
So here’s my resolution in 2016: I’m going to be really good to myself. I’m going to allow myself the courage to fail and to learn from that. I’m going to allow my self the courage to succeed and learn from that.
Above all else, I really want to be the best version of me. I think I’m ready to actually make that happen.