A few days ago I started writing the blog in a notebook, thinking I’d just publish later that night. Predictably, lazy would find me at some point in the early evening and steal my will to publish (as it does each Monday that I come home with a bely full of BBQ and bourbon). So here we are a few days since I published anything and I feel remarkably lazy. Not just lazy but I feel like the importance of the whole affair has diminished. This is largely due to the fact that I have 1 reader. This is not an official tally, of course. I used to be able to examine traffic, but the system has fallen off a bit. No, without the facebook connection I’m pretty sure next to no one is paying attention to this blog. I’m in ‘Tree falls in the woods’ territory here, but I continue to try and make a sound.
The blog isn’t the most important thing. What matters is that I’ve begun to allow success to dictate action and reaction. That cannot happen. This is what led me to start assessing my behaviors, habits, and goals. I’m going to be more diligent about the blog. It is important to give 100% of your focus and energy to the things you claim hold value. Without that focus nothing of value truly matters. This entire house of cards we’ve built up around ourselves and the personal concept of worth only stays up when we allow the things that supposedly matter to matter with consequence for them not mattering.
There is of course a simpler way to say that, but it isn’t the sort of phrasing that finds you in the average ten minute draft.