Its funny how the choices you make keep coming round and again. In a way those choices are a reflection of who you are and come back because they are representative of what you will do again. The other day my Division Chair asked me if I planned on slowing down any time soon. I teach the maximum number of classes (counting overload hours), which means that I am working very hard to make ends meet in order to compensate for the lack of funding in the family. It also means that burnout is always only a heartbeat away.
I’m not there yet.
Maybe I’ll find some new and deeper strength from all of this. Maybe I am pushing my engine to the max in order to find yet another gear that I can rev up into. Maybe, just maybe, I have no idea how much I can take before utter and total collapse.