I like to be poetic. I started with the idea of ‘before the dawn’ but that felt more appropriate for day 365. This works well for 364. Today is about looking forward and deciding what forward is going to look like. Tomorrow is about looking backwards and understanding how I got to the place I am at.
I decided that Tuesday will mark version 3.0 of this blog. This is not a permanent change. I will mark the next 365 days of the blog with a clear purpose in mind. Each day over the next year is dedicated to personal growth and healing. I am making mental time for myself. Each day is about how I change and how I get to a place where I am healthy and feel good about myself. Each day is a mile marker on that incredibly long journey back to a place where I can be productive and happy. The blog will reflect that journey. 10 minutes will remind me and share with the world how I did for the day and how that day carries me forward into the next.
For a long time now I did not expect to be alive by Christmas. I know it sounds melodramatic, but the truth of the matter is I’ve felt as unhealthy as I am unhappy, and while I’ve talked aloud about fixing that, the problem only worsens on all levels–physical, mental, and even social. It reached the point where I totally alienated my partner and made a reality of that feeling of solitude every writer talks about but never actually wants.
But that is a conversation for tomorrow.
Today is about goals and moving forward. I plan to make time and space for my health, my happiness, my words, and my heart–in reverse order. It all starts with the heart and the happiness that comes from lasting human connections. We are a social species, so I must repair the bonds that nurture me. Next, my words are suffering from a serious lack of seat time. For starters I need a new seat and a new schedule to place my butt in said seat. I must be diligent and make the time required to find my way back to the well of words.
Last is happiness. Lasting happiness is a function of the above. I find happiness in peace and order as well, so I must create an environment (or at least restore one) where I feel some lasting peace. I’m considering the creation of a ‘wild hour’ where we focus on pure crazy, because in balance we must have all things.
That’s it for now. That is what I’ve come up with.