I am blogging on my phone, which is to say I haven’t solved the computer problem. Perhaps this is the return of the gremlins problem—the universe’s way of saying, ‘you still haven’t quite made it.’
trust me, universe, I know.
Still i have made a lot of progress and I feel like I am slowly drifting away from self-deprication and destruction towards what looks to be a more positive state of being. It is as slow and painful of a journey as can be but it is progress.
Today I watched my mid-kid practice football, proud of how far he has come with my eyes ultimately on the goal of seeing his college paid for by sports and academics both and him enjoying that ride. He has the chops to do it. Not right now. Right now he’s a dehydrated mess of a fortnite addicted kid and that’s squarely on bad parenting. I need to set limits for him and the others and remember they are kids who clearly have no sense of their limitations in the face of fun and desire.
A lot of life boils down to moderation and limit setting. Sadly these remain the weakest facets of my personality. It shows.