A smoother way to day it would be, overextended.
I am certain that this is a flaw of giving people, a flaw of intelligent people, and a flaw of egotistical people. I am one or more of those types of people and I wholly possess the flaw of overextension. The thing is, I believe I can accomplish everything and anything I set my mind to. However, I take on so much that I often limp through these accomplishments and in that downgrade the opinion that others hold of me.
Here are the facts: I am teaching 7 classes this semester. I am also the Lead Faculty for developmental education. I am also the faculty liaison for the writing center. I am also coaching two flag football teams and assistant coaching a baseball team. I am working on a novel. I am working on some writing for a video game. I am working on some writing for a role playing game. All of these things in addition to being a father and a husband who needs to find time to exercise, sleep, and otherwise take care of himself. Obviously, I am overextended. The problem is I am unwilling to give up any of the wonderful work I do. My answer has always been scheduling, but the scheduling fails to account for me time, and when I become overwhelmed, I allow the me time to dominate everything and the other stuff gets neglected.
Where is the balance? It lives in a place just outside of my reach right now. It languishes in a book or a Ted talk, or a therapists couch, somewhere I have yet to access. On the other hand, I look at some of the incredible people of our world and what they do and ask myself this: if they can do it, why can’t I?
Then I double down and put more on the plate.