Fitting that I didn’t post the blog last night. I was overwhelmed by a great many things. To begin, break has begun and the kids are totally jazzed about xmas being around the corner. Me, not so much. I haven’t gotten all the gifts, I have no real plan on how to spend the time with them, I haven’t finished the work I need to do pre xmas, and did I mention gifts?
This is not supposed to be a stress-filled time but, here we are. So, it is no surprise I only hit publish one time and clapped the laptop shut before diving into an episode of God Friended Me with the boys (we do love our shows). The moment was indicative of two things: First, the double tap publish is not intuitive. You can always unpublish or delete, BTW. So, why do I have to hit it twice?! It makes me look unfocused, which I am. So, stop exposing me. Second, as I said, I’m unfocused. I wasn’t sitting down to the ritual of writing. I was trying to squeeze in ten minutes so I can feel accomplished and go kick it with my kids.
So, that there is the real trouble. I’m not living that life I just talked about wanting to have. I’m still diving from cave to cave and watching the rest of the world turn to dust in the interim. In other words, I need to get back to balance.
Funny… I’m not sure I know what that really looks like. I don’t think I’ve ever actually seen it.