For all intents and purposes this is the last week of my summer vacation. It sucks. I was supposed to be in California right now on the beach post youth football game. I was supposed to go somewhere and do something. None of that actually went down. I didn’t write nearly as much as planned and a sickening despondency collapsed my self worth. Yep, it was a not the summer of my dreams.
Here is the thing: I can power through all of this. I need to.
I’ve been in a rut for far too long and it is a very good sign that I am going back to the daily grind, because it gives me a sense of structure that rescues me from the hours of Minecraft and NBA 2K that have absorbed my sense of self and in that my sense of self worth. I need to get back on track with a lot of things and I feel like I have it in me to do that–to stay focused and get back to work.
And I have to.
I said that before but I am repeating it here because I believe I have a story–many–to tell and I cannot do that without butt in chair. On the bright side I am developing a new office over the next month and a new space may be exactly what I need to cement the change. Change is good. Change is needed.
Some Thoughts:
- Justin Bieber wants to fight Tom Cruise in the octagon. Why? I don’t care enough to really unravel this, but it is the stupid kind of funny that made Jackass work.
- NFL needs to hurry up and start. Just start.
- Dogs are hairy. Real damn hairy.
- In spite of this I want another dog.
- I’m less excited about the youth football season, because I don’t know my role or my team. That lack of information is balanced against the understanding that I’ve backed off a lot of the football stuff (remember we were supposed to spend a week in Cali and the entire summer doing two and three a week practices for said tourney). I haven’t traded in the football stuff for anything useful though. I ought to find a way to do that.
- Beyond all that, life rocks.
- Feels pretty good to come around to writing that down.