Here we are. A year later and my life has come back to the same place I was a year ago– the same exact place. A year ago (2.365) I wrote, “I didn’t spend the last year living but instead trying to figure out a way to live and making sense of what little there was to hold on to while hoping for more.” I was despondent and I’ve drifted in and out of that despondency for a year more. I didn’t get married or even engaged as I wanted. I didn’t publish a book as I wanted. I didn’t see my kids reach the athletic success as I wanted. I did make progress in understanding that there is a balance between what I want and need and what can actually be done. I learned my limits. I moved a little further on the path. I came to realize a lot about my own needs.
This next year holds change and promise in so many ways. My partner is moving into a new house and I get to be a part of that experience. I’m losing my house and I’ll be dramatically downsizing in an experience that promises a very tough next few years. I’m learning that relationships are about the wants and needs of each person being met and that sometimes means you have to embrace patience about the big things like marriage. I’m learning that Always Forward also means that we learn by looking back. I’m learning about my writing in terms of what I need to do and what I haven’t given my heart and time to. I’m learning about my gaming addiction.
Learning is life long, but I feel like I should be focusing a lot more on action based on the learning. Tomorrow I’ll start the next stage of the blog and we can all learn what that means.