This is the fourth iteration of a blog I started years ago based around the principle of forming a habit of writing. I believed if I could write for ten minutes a day it would increase my dedication to the words and increase my output dramatically. This has gone on for over 7 years–longer than that but I can definitely quantify it as that at least. Long enough for, according to some, to replace most cells in your body with new ones. I wanted to become a new person–a better version of myself. I wanted to dedicate myself to a life that swirled around love and words like the paired ends of a magnet.
Since I started my life has changed a lot. I’ve bettered myself in many ways, but I have also fallen into dark gullies of depression. I fell in love more than I ever had in the history of my life. I made mistakes. I won some. I lost some. I watched myself grow old and slow and stale in so many ways. I got bad at video games. I got desperate for achievements in sports (see posts on my offense). I did so many things that were out of character that I lost sight of my character.
Now, here we are.
I’ve come a long way for not having a direction beyond betterment. I’ve done a lot of damage and done some good. I’m at a space mentally where I am ready to move forward. 4. Always forward. 4 means the next stage in my life. I’m starting late, but I’ll keep this 4 going for a while. 5 will be a big one, but we have years to go before that happens. I’m going to enjoy the 4 and the growth and pain and love and loss and all that it brings. I am going to be mindful and I am going to learn how to get locked in.