I do not want to finish my current project. This is contract work for a company I will not name telling a story I am not truly excited about and do not in the least feel knowledgeable about or comfortable enough to be telling. Therein lies the problem. I am struggling to write a piece that I do not really want to be writing and the result is a total disengagement from the writing life itself.
When the book on writing finally gets written there will be a chapter on working the job that doesn’t excite you. Occasionally (honestly more often than not) I will take on a writing project that is not very exciting or interesting in order to continue working and publishing and putting out good work. The grunt stuff opens the door for the stories I really want to tell. If I can continue to be viewed as a reliable writer then I can produce the stories I want to work. Now the issue with this is simple: If the work is not engaging then it may not be good, which results in a reputation worse than I had prior to the job.
Which brings me to the now: I do not want to finish this current project. I try to come to the page every day and every day I fail miserably. I need to find a way to gin up some passion for this project in order to get it done and get it done in a way that makes the writing sound good. At the very least I need an angle.
Some Thoughts:
- I am really struggling with this particular situation and I am angered by it. I ought to be able to sit down and write but here we are–writing about the inability to write.