The official weigh-in was 205.8, my lowest number yet and 10 lbs off the big weight I’ve been coming down from. It hasn’t been an easy road for me. The goal is to be the best me possible, and that goal requires me to buck up and exercise some courage, willpower, and determination. I have 15.8 (15.4 as of this post) lbs to go to make my target weight. It isn’t going to happen with just a diet change. No, I have to start working out in a serious way. Today I took a step forward, running a mile for the first time in nearly 6 months. I didn’t time it, didn’t try to set any speed records. I just tried to gut out an exercise that my mind did not want to complete. I wanted to quit at the .25 mark. I found excuses to be and do anything else. Still, I endured. I wanted to quit again at .5 and again at .7, .8, .88. Not till I hit the mid 9 range did I want to power through. It is a lesson in perseverance.
There are things in life that I want. Some of them I should not have, some of them will have dire consequences, and others are worth fighting for. If I am to be the best me possible it means weighing all of these things and putting the maximum amount of effort towards getting the job done. This has been a difficult thing for me, but it isn’t an impossible one. I know there is a better version of me in here somewhere. I just have to care enough to find it.
Some Thoughts:
- I miss New York, but I don’t necessarily miss the New Yorkers.
- The NCIS production team is piloting a new show. They’re taking a page from the CSI playbook by introducing the new NCIS: Red team in a popular NCIS show. Red offers to be an interesting look at a female driven NCIS vehicle with a strong cast and a cool shooting style that is somewhat derivative of NCIS: LA