It is just before six am and I find myself scrambling to put together my classes for the week. I’m doing a lot of redesign and rebuilding this year and teaching different versions of the same class online, which involves more shuffling than I thought possible. In addition I’ve assigned more work than before–more work at my 100 and 200 level classes than in my 300 level classes. This is a pattern that probably needs to change in the future as well. However, here we are.
So, I am scrambling. I am trying to grade enough work this morning to be able to post the new stuff for, well, this morning. This is not the position I crave to be in, but it is the one I chose to be in by taking the last week basically off. As I’ve chronicled, the recent emotional journey has been a tortured one. I have not been on my A game in any way shape or form. Last night I woke up less than an hour after falling asleep and I told myself, “that is it. You need to get your crap together now.” I managed to get back to bed instead of staying up all night as I’ve been doing under these circumstances. It was a brief and poignant moment of self control that led me to be up pre-dawn and deciding that I was going to get on top of this mountain of madness that is my life.
Or maybe I just recognize that I’m in the sprint phase and I’m one hell of a sprinter. Either way, I am ready to work extremely hard and get things done.
Some Thoughts:
- More on that sprinting vs. pacing philosophy at a later date… I need to think on that one.
- Very disappointed in the youth football stuff, as I have explained before. What sucks even more is that the season is going to be ending for our team in the next two weeks. We are starting playoffs and given our record showing 1 loss, we will likely end up playing the team we lost to in the 2nd round and we haven’t gotten any better. If anything we got worse. We lost our QB and our #2 is decent, but she isn’t ready for a team that brings that much pressure. Moreover, our run game has not done a thing this season and we are still starting the wrong kid.