I am starting to sense that this website situation might be a real problem. For days now I have been able to view the site but unable to access it. I will admit that very little mental energy was directed towards this cause, but I do recognize the need (now) to consider it. I am still extremely tired and mentally depleted. I want to sit by the pool and think.I want to chill. I want to forget about work and about school and about dressing nice. I want to go to the movies and enjoy something senseless for hours. I want to be apart from myself and my responsibilities.
I want a massage.
I want to know that this feeling inside of me can be abated by rest and the thoughts of utter burn out will fly the way of birds in winter. I have so many wants and there is so much that needs to happen. I know that I am capable of very hard work when moved to do so, but I feel like that hard work should be rewarded by a sufficient vegetative time period–which has failed to occur in recent months. Parents don’t get an off day, because kids don’t have an off switch.