I stumbled into a chain of progressively more awkward conversations tonight only realizing three in that they were in fact the same conversation with the same purpose, though the subject matter shifted. What it was really about was an outpouring of negativity. The boys in question were talking badly about everything as if as a part of an exercise to get it out of their system. I hope it worked. My inclusion in the conversation only made it tougher for what they were apparently trying to accomplish. I suppose their vocal release is the equivalent of how I play some video games. I need to get it out of my system and until I do it just builds up and makes me a worse human being. Instead of calling this the negativity cycle I probably should have called it outlets, because thats what I am really talking about and what is really going on in these interactions.
Some Thoughts:
- Tripping and stressed out tonight. No clue what brought it on. I just need to get out of that cycle.
- Looking forward to practice tomorrow.
- Not looking forward to Madden so much. The entire thing is loosing its luster. I think they’ve gone in a wrong direction by focusing on next gen and forgetting the millions who still play current gen. It is a mess.