I was happy today–legit happy–for the first time in a while. I spent time with my love, I taught a class I love, I talked with students totally engaged in writing and even gifted one a book! Then I went out and led a pretty solid football practice. This was as close to self-actualization as I’ve been in years. So, what made it so special? I allowed myself to live in each of these individual moments and did not allow myself to get bogged down in what if and what more and, well, whatever. This is the very seed of impermanence flowering into a day that exposed my raw emotional needs and at once fulfilled them.
In other words, happy day.
Now what? I live the next day. Somewhere above it all I am forming the scaffolding for wha could be described as a life. I don’t know where that life will happen or who or what it will contain. I know that, once upon a time, I had a life that was about my needs and my happiness, but not in a very selfish way at all. Since the pendulum has swung to the needs and desires of everyone else with little attention paid to what I desire and need. Today I allowed myself to be and to do the things that make me happy. If I continue that then I feel my needs will be met as I continue my life path of making those around me better.
What more could I ask for?
Some Thoughts:
- I need a maid. Seriously.