Day: September 2, 2025

Early one.

I’m reflecting on life and on where I am with the ups and downs and the general navigation of my life. There have been a few moments as of late that have served as lightning rods for such reflection. ON two recent occasions consecutively, my stepson took it upon himself to sit at my seat at the head of the table. I didn’t fight the situation. I watched him eat there, taking up more space in that area than I ever personally do, and not think anything of me sitting in a place I didn’t want to sit in order to eat my meal. Then he did it again. That set me off. I didn’t react then, because it would have made it a problem for everyone. However, I will next time. Better to steer the boat then to let it run into a rock and watch everything flood.

Taking control of my life and home is a condition of being able to survive being here. At some point we stopped doing that and gave over to the idea that everyone else’s schedule and habits are more important or at least interrupt our own. It happens every day and we let it. we need to get more of that control back in our spaces and thusly in our lives.

That is the roadmap to my sanity. That is how I get back to being right.

I raced in here to get the blog done before dinner only to discover that I have nothing to say. I suppose I could’ve waited, but I wanted to be free of responsibility after the dinner hour in order to have a longer break until the morning courses. I am not doing well in terms of creativity as of late. I am feeling less-than and dealing, I suppose, with a bit of lag from where we were over the summer. I keep looking back to pictures of the beach and thinking about how nice the home was in Canada.

Being here is not pleasant. It is not a friendly country. I do get to be present for my kids playing sports, and that appears to be most of what anyone actually needs me here for. The Lady Talis is needed as a support system for the entire mess of them, but my role is advisor, cheer squad, and guy they can rely on showing up. So, I do that, but what can I do outside of that here.

The answer is not much.