Leaving New York City can sometimes feel like losing a limb; the ghost of it lingers for a time, reminding of all that came with it. The trick of leaving is to return a different person than you were. I have my mantra, of course, and now I will build rituals around it to further my efforts to be better.
And now..
Some Thoughts:
1. Part of the ‘weight’ one puts on is the weight of stress and responsibility. I continue to work to shed that abundance of weight in both physical and metaphysical terms. In essence that means coming to terms with how things are and creating an environment that allows me to succeed as things are.
2. For a while there I was taking one lap around the block as a way to get in shape. The result was a swift realization that I still hate running. Regardless, it needs to happen. I’m about at that point where I am willing to do what needs to be done for my body to make sure I can do what I want and look the way I want to for years to come.
3. Watching The Theory of Everything is a brief reminder that I am more fortunate than I think I am and I am not nearly as intelligent as I think I am. It also served to remind me that the conditions of our lives create the conditions of our learning and action–or inaction. For example, living in a suburban oasis has definetely made me that guy who lounges around after work watching TV and waiting for my kids to make me proud through sport. Short of moving, The thing to do there is to rebrand the environment as one that does not support such nonsense.
4. Soccer season is beginning for the boys. This represents a shuttling ‘situation’ given that three boys are playing on three teams and one boy is playing a sport (football) that has road games far away from the ‘Copa on days the others have home games. At least the two soccer teams don’t have conflicting times. #firstworldproblems.
5. 40. Go figure. I think your mind loses a bit of elasticity as you get older, or maybe you just realize that you aren’t immortal or the smartest guy on the planet.
6. I haven’t talked football in days.