The Plan for Happiness failed.
No, I’m kidding. It has been a particularly rough day, but the plan is still working. I am still finding beautiful moments. They are just harder to see when I am so tired. Why, you might ask? I’ve been on the road for nearly four hours today and I didn’t even do more than drop my kids off and pick them up from school. Traffic can be a nightmarish scenario. It can be so difficult that it eats away at the day. This is what happened to me for sure.
The day started with a 4:30 wake up, which is typical for a Friday or Saturday. I managed to crawl back into the bed a get some shut eye into the 6 AM hour. Fast forwarding from there the day was mostly a wash. I listened to a Margaret Atwood audio book, dealt with the horror of an auto recall (for another blog, trust me) and did some work. That was the entire day. Following that was the nightmarish 3 hr run of picking up the kids. I was in the car from 3 until nearly 6:15. Traffic was so bad that I had to find not one but two different ways home after the first alternate route fell apart.
There’s this quote by Vita Sackville-West that I enjoy: “It is necessary to write, if the days are not to slip emptily by. How else, indeed, to clap the net over the butterfly of the moment? For the moment passes, it is forgotten; the mood is gone; life itself is gone. That is where the writer scores over his fellows: he catches the changes of his mind on the hop.”
Every time I read it I find myself thinking about clapping the net over the butterfly of the moment. But here is the thing. Some moments, like today, are not worth the capture. Some moments are better left to the oblivion of the past. I think that is what is best to do with today. I abandon it to the oblivion of the past and hope to start fresh in the morning.
Some Thoughts:
- Been playing way too much Clash Royale. The argument can be successfully made that the addiction has returned in spades. So much so that I thought about quitting today. The thought was fleeting, but returns on the wind.
- There is the drama of football returning. quite soon. It makes me happy to know that it is returning in professional, collegiate, and youth form.