I did not write a Waiver Wednesday, because I was still dealing with a lot of disappointment surrounding my own behavior and a lot of resignation regarding how small people are and how attached to things that I do not see holding quite the value they do. I believe I was also upset because those things were slowly starting to hold value to me as well, despite understanding how meaningless they are. It comes back to this: For some people, you gotta stand for something and gotta represent something and take pride in it. We choose what we choose. I have not entirely chosen. I thought it was writing, but I’ve been so wrapped up in the nonsense of Youth Football that it started to become that. For some people it’s real football. This blog is for them.
I am predicting a Giants win here and now. I believe Eli finally had a moment where he recognized what he has to do in order to be successful. I question whether he still has the confidence and accuracy to do it. I found that in week 3 he displayed both for a very small window–roughly a minute. Before the Linebackers scared him so. I suspect with the TB Linebackers not at 100% Eli will have a day.
Now I want to shift gears to Deshaun Watson. The kid is making me a Texans fan. His college coach called him a Jordan-like talent on and off the field. He showed that by donating his first game check to members of the kitchen staff at NRG stadium who’d lost their homes in the storm. Funny that we chide atheletes for making so much money but don’t chide businessmen for making serious buck. Funny how an athlete will donate 1/16th of his salary to help people and we still call them selfish. Watson is not selfish. In truth the majority of NFL athletes do outreach and community service at some level and the ones at the top of the payscale do even more. Honestly, this IS an argument about race and it IS being pushed in that direction by the President. Nobody ever asks how the white players spend their buck. The focus remains on the black athletes who ‘should be grateful.’
Enough of that for now. Time for…
Some Thoughts:
- 90 days since I started writing and the quitting reason is still a fresh wound. I write for love and write for those I love. I write because in that space of writing there is a trust and openness that only exists in love and in letter. That connection felt broken, and though mended there are days where hurt strains the cord.
- It finally occurred to me that the music used in the trailer for Ready Player One is a clear riff on Willy Wonka. That makes a ton of sense. Well played.