This is the first of three big wrestling tourneys my mid kid is competing in this month. While I am supposed to be excited, I am instead quite annoyed. See, he is not a person who takes a ton of responsibility for his own failures, so already I see that he is looking to blame anyone else for him losing. I’ve already had to shut him down on this tourney’s blame cycle–not even being willing to engage in the banter. This is the best way to handle such things. Shut him down and penalize if the conversation continues. I.e. wanna talk more? Okay then we skip the next one. More and more I believe he is not cut out to be an athlete. I don’t know what he is cut out for with that attitude. Perhaps he will grow into a better man based on learning from these experiences. One can only hope.
So, hope is what I will do and discuss here. I’m in a world of hope with little to represent solid footing. I hope I have not irrevocably injured the most important and impactful relationship in my life, though I doubt I even know how to know such things. I hope this new job experience leads to deeper understanding of the writing world and doesn’t just fall to dysfunction and politics (I have the freedom to quit should that occur). I hope I can get on track with my storytelling in a way that reminds me of why I love writing–a way I can feel. I hope I stay on track with my classes.
Lots of hopes light the month of January. Often by February those lights have collapsed into darkness. It happens. I cannot guarantee it won’t happen to me, but the thing about hope is that the flame needs to be fanned. I’m good at hoping; bad at fanning. So, we shall indeed see.
Some Thoughts:
- Just learned that Harry and wife gave up their royal titles. This is set back for race relations. Sadly, people will blame the black chick for messing everything. It does not matter that this is not at all true, based on what i’ve been reading and what has been said by the people involved. It will be seen as ‘what happens’ when you involve those not like you. Obviously her being an American only makes things worse.