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The only way to get into a rhythm is to do what you are supposed to be doing–no hesitation, no I will do it tomorrow. So, I’m turning over a new leaf (pre Thanksgiving and New Year’s resolutions). I’m turning the clock way back to the original 1,000 posts: 838 to be precise. It was a politiblog where I discussed a $50 dollar bet a democrat made me that Obama would lose the election, as well as some nonsense that Rep. King said back in the day about rape and abortion. My how things have advanced. Abortion was struck down by the Supreme Court in a wave of right-leaning power mongering that eventually resulted in a Trump win. Now we’re seeing –and I mean EVERYONE– the self-serving nature of that false leader. It might actually be a very good thing. He might be powerful enough to make the right cannabalize itself and destabilize the powerful media engine that drives that party. Once upon a time it was okay to be a Republican and to have debates and differences of opinion. Now its about lock step and we are going to follow party platform to the end. However, Trump isn’t about party. He’s down for self, and DeSantis is a threat to that. I’m excited to see that clash on display and in the process Democrats might actually get stuff done.. for the first time since Obama won that election… and I won that bet.

Three quarters of the way to a thousand days in version/phase 6 of the Ten Minute rule. I think I’ll be really reflective at a thousand. Time moves strangely depending on how you look at it. No two days ever feel quite the same length, and as the days line up

Some Thoughts:

1. I read the Terminal Man specifically because the show was coming out and I wanted to get the real first. The real is better. The show is okay at best. In truth, I am bothered by the change in multiple character portrayals.
2. Waiver Wednesday will contain a fantasy update..
3. Dirty bathrooms in movies somehow always look less insidious than the real thing.
4. Rezvani is selling legit urban tactical vehicles. To the public.

I’m writing this from my phone as I sit in bed alone at the end of a long Sunday. I’ve been ‘dadding’ four boys all day, which means cooking and cleaning and playing games while they contribute little to the work being done. This is not the way, but it is, and I’ve too often been just another boy doing little. I get that now, following a few days on the other side. I get how the house is boy-land and lacks the balance that would make a woman want to live here. My lady is gone, for a while, and I’ve been holding it down. It is a full time job for a man that has two already. Needless to say, things are getting neglected.

now more than ever I need to embrace the list and some semblance of balance and understanding how long things take. Perhaps this is the push I’ve needed all along.

I’m woefully behind on quite a few things right now. I’d enjoy seeing a year when this was not the case. It is the way, but it shouldn’t be. I’m working on making a new way. I have all the tools I need, but after 40+ years on this plane of existence, I seem quite set on being lazy. Imagine who I would’ve been had I not been so. I think like that a lot, and that is useless backwards thinking. Instead I need to be forward thinking. Always forward. So, what am I going to do today?

Some Thoughts:

1. I love spell check.
2. Hulu is intent on making me use a new unified password across all properties. But why?

Too much screen time tonight. It’s left me drained and discombobulated. This is what happens when left to my own devices. Literally, I suppose. I played a lot of Gotham Nights and now I am experiencing eye strain and cannot entirely think straight. I’ll give the world a new look tomorrow. Tonight I need to get to bed. However, first….

Some Thoughts:

1. I don’t get how my kids live like this every single day. It feels so empty and pointless.

I wish I wouldn’t get so excited to see a film. It can never live up to the buildup in my imagination. It can never be as grand and wonderful as I wanted it to be. It can never tell the full story. Why? Because I’m a book guy, and a book gives you as many pages as it needs to tell the tale. A movie clocks in at 3 hrs or lest for the most part. That is not enough time to tell the story of Wakanda. That was not enough time to build up to everything they wanted to do and resolve it in the way it needed to be resolved. It is not enough time to explore as many characters as they chose to fill the screen with and still feel like you’ve been told the story of each.

This is not to say this is a bad movie. It was good. I enjoyed it. That being said, it was not as much as I hoped, in spite of the length. I am happy I saw it and I will likely see it again at a much later date. It was not as good as the first movie, yet it was a deeply stirring tribute to the man who brought the Black Panther to life.

The mantle sits on new shoulders now, and it is worth it to see how this new Panther handles things. It is also worth it to see what happens to some of the other characters as we move forward. Wakanda is in good hands–Good enough that I look forward to what it does in the future.

Kadarius Toney might be good. He only had two targets and caught both for a total of 12 yards, but the crazy whip route he ran is exactly why he got drafted in the first place. The dude goes hard every play. Even when he blocks he goes all out. That sort of effort will get noticed in KC and will get him on the field. Will it mean more KC wins? Not yet, but who knows?

I know this week is going to be a fun one. The Giants are back at it. Next up is the Texans, and I am waiting to see how the G-men respond to the loss of their defensive play caller as they are forced to contend with one of the toughest runners in the league in Dameon Pierce. Should be a rather Giants sort of game. 4th Q will decide it.

The rest of the league is looking rather odd. The Bills fell to the Jets, like someone said. That means the J-E-T-S are a half game out of first and the NFC and AFC Eastern divisions are looking quite saucy (No Gardner pun intended). If Allen is legit injured, Bills are out of the race. It falls to a Jets v. Dolphins race. If not…

What nobody is talking about is the upcoming return of Deshaun Watson. It won’t mean much this season, with the division presently owned by the Ravens, but it matters for fantasy owners like me. Watson raises the profile of all the Wideouts on that squad. Sure, he’s a dirtbag, and I don’t excuse it, but I also didn’t bury my copies of Silver Linings Playbook and Django unchained because Harvey Weinstein made them. I hope Watson pays his price for his sick fetishizing of female masseurs. I hope I can get a WR some more points because he plays too.

I find myself thinking of a wonderful passage a student once wrote about dust. I’m staring at my ceiling fan and considering the collected dust there and considering how that stillness could be a metaphor for how I conduct this rare and beautiful life. I have so many opportunities available to me and I find that, more often than not, I am waiting for.. something else? Something more? Carpe Diem ought to sit better with me. I have what I need to be successful right now and I have what I need to be creative right now, however, I am lazier than I have any good right to be. I have been since about 14.

It would take years of therapy to dissect how we got here. Suffice to say there is no going back. There is perhaps a way to rebuild and to make of me something of worth. What is it going to take to be focused on the writing and the exploration of the world on a more regular basis?

Some Thoughts:

1. MarbleLeague is back! They’ve seemingly incorporated Jellotech into the proceedings. That company is, apparently, the name they are using to label the very dope marble tech they’ve developed for this amazing show.
2. They also have great gear.
3. Perhaps it is still true that one of the things I truly wish to develop is a league like this where it is very fun and fair and people can enjoy without the anger and blame largely associated with, well, everything else. House of Beys was my last shot at that. HoB was nearly 5 years ago…
4. Gosh, how have I grown in five years?

Not a big idea day. Just have…

Some Thoughts:

1. Do people forget how to see ghosts? People forget or never learn how to channel their own energies all the time. Is it so strange to think we may lose touch with our ability to feel energies beyond ourselves–perhaps even as a result?
2. New update for the blog’s backend. Liking the new update and how it feels to write.
3. Listening to Mr. Nightmare as I do this…
4. I hate roaches
5. I hate how messy my office is… though this has nothing to do with the roach comment above.
6. More than anything, I hate how disorganized I am at present. I need that hard reset and nothing to do for a few weeks…
7. The Lakers should trade LeBron and their Center. In fact, they ought to trade a lot of their talent away. Not Westbrook. Don’t lose the picks needed to trade Westbrook. Ride out the season with him and let him go–keep the money free for free agency and start fresh.
8. If I win the Powerball, I’m definitely buying property internationally. I’d be interested in buying interest in a sports team as well…

Finally watched Midnight in Paris. I’d long mistaken it for a film about a couple that meets on a train and it is absolutely not that. Instead it is a story about a man who roams the streets of France each night and is transported to the past where he meets the literary and Art Giants. It is an amazing thing he goes through and it reminds me of the very brief time I spent at university surrounded by writers and being a part of a working writing community. I don’t interact with a ton of novelists and don’t have the kind of discourse with those kind of artists that helps move my writing to the state I want it to be in. I’m not where I am at, and I don’t truly believe those sorts of communities exist near me.

Some Thoughts:

1. Good weekend of football.
2. Good weekend with the family.
3. Bad weekend for writing.
4. I’m trying to develop a playbook in madden I can really appreciate and enjoy. It hasn’t gone so well thus far. I have a ton of formations in my book that I never use, and I see that I need to thin out the book quite a bit. I am going to make a slim version that I hope to be able to use with fewer notes.