Day: September 26, 2024

I am still bad at making lists. I do HAVE a list now. I called it the Fall 24 Master List. It has subsections and daily categories which remind me of the needs of self for every day of the week. It looks neat. It has some things on it. I have not used it once since creating it. In fact, it is only open right now (for the second time ever) because I am writing about it and in order to do so I needed to have it open because I could not remember what it said.

I am not good at using lists.

The reality is that such things–such structures–are necessary for me to be able to stay organized. I have yet to find the proper structure–the one that works in real time with me. I suspect this may be the one true way I interact with AI through the future. Perhaps it may remind me of what needs doing and to automate the process of remembering and locating time for things to be done.

On a brighter note, I am doing stuff. I did work butt in chair on writing today and I made real progress. I am not where I need or want to be but I am ahead of where I was and presumably in a much better place now. I have the general underpinnings of what is going on in all three of these interactive stories I am writing. I also have my head stuffed full of older stories and novels that I really do need to write. Here’s what needs to happen. Time on task really needs to be time on task. I have to spend that time working, thinking, planning, and when I can reliably do that, I am going to be pretty darn good at getting this work out and done.

As a father I often worry and even wait for the dreaded injury. It happened last week to the last born. He fractured a bone in his hand near the knuckle. Seemed like he’d be out a few weeks until he went to practice that following Monday and decided he needed to get a cast and play the game. I’m not quite sure what shifted his thinking, but he will be out there trying to build on his best season yet. His best season–not theirs. They’ve won a single game in 4 attempts. He’s up to 22 tackles or an avg of 5.5 a game. He’s making a difference and growing as a player. He will need to do more as the season progresses if they hope to reach 3 or more wins.

His big bro is not playing yet. He’s flirting with a redshirt, trying to determine if it is in his best interests to burn the season or burn the redshirt. My advice is the former–especially if he intends to move to one of the power 5 later in his career. He’s still young and needs film and experience and once he does move (his major will eventually force that move) he will need to sit a season and learn the team. That doesn’t happen without a redshirt.

As for me, well my time as a fantasy manager has taken a turn for the sad. I’m losing in each of the three leagues I’m in. Feels like I cannot catch a break. For example, I missed out on Juan Jennings weeks ago when I thought to take him. I still have holes at WR and fear they aren’t going to be filed by what is on my bench right now. Tough season. At least the Giants notched a win…

As I work through learning how to rebuild my schedule I am coming to the realization that not having a standard work day (9-5X5) is impacting expectations at every level and for everyone–myself included. This is another obstacle I need to overcome. I need to be able to reshape expectations in a way that allow for me to have the appropriate amount of time to get what I need out of a day, including down time to really enjoy myself. I don’t actually get a whole lot of that. I want more solo time on some days. Less on others. It really comes down to this concept of shaping expectations, and I haven’t done very well at that at all.

Some Thoughts:

1. Well, that was cryptic.
2. I really don’t have more to say on the issue. I’m starting to sound like a politician here…
3. What I can be more clear about is my absolute disappointment about not being able to keep the cats from ripping my couches to shreds. It didn’t matter so much when they were old couches that didn’t look good. We spent quite a bit of money on these new ones and they do look really nice. At least for now. The cats are going ham on those things…
4. Some days ten minutes are a word flood. Some days it is a trickle. It all depends on how open my brain is to conversations.