2.331. On Assessment

Assessment has become the key phrase in education as of late. The general idea behind it is sensible: how do you know that students are learning, and how do you know that they way you are teaching is aiding vs. inhibiting that learning? Of course as with all things that force you to look at yourself in a somewhat arbitrary fashion, it involves a ton of resistance and paperwork. Honestly my resistance is largely to the paperwork. I am not good at it. I do not want to get better at it. I do not want to waste my life doing it. There is no need for TPS reports in my reality. Or fax machines. Regardless, the era of assessment is upon us, and the people in charge are exactly the people who find immense joy in this stuff but act like its a chore because they want to make sure they’re still one of the cool kids.

Assessment at my school basically breaks down to measuring one specific outcome through an assignment (which will grow to multiple outcomes through multiple assignments and make me groan and quit). So, we are supposed to take an assignment, view it through a shared rubric, write down some numbers and move on. Except we aren’t supposed to move on. We have to talk about it and analyze it and share it in a circle, passing the talking stick amongst each other until we’ve all stated how we can grow. This is a universal model of reflection on assessment and I’m not a fan. I suppose I’m more of a hermit in my assessment. I want to see how the students did, think about what I did, and fix it. In my dark office. Alone.

I don’t want people telling me how to teach. My preference is to get a bunch of input and see a number of people teach and pick and choose the stuff I like and apply that. This is the model I tried to bring to the college, but this isn’t the model that stuck.

So here we are.

2.330.

Coming up on the full year since the blog broke. Since I broke the blog in fact. In truth this has been an incredibly long and difficult year which has made me immensely stronger and more focused as a human. I wish this year could’ve happened when I was in the prime of my being as opposed to approaching mid forties and broken down. This is a point of reflection–the full force of which will not be felt for another 35 days (no, the last leap year was ’16). I am seeing myself crystal clear and learning to accept my weaknesses alongside my strengths as the elements that make me who I am. I am also learning how much time I have in a day (in a life?) to make the moves in the world I feel I should (and will). There is a lot of me to be learned and developed and a lot more still to be healed from years and years of flat out abuse.

So here we are in a 35 day window of reflection and wonder as I take the full measure of what has been and what should be and what can be. Let us see what will be learned in the next cycle.

Some Thoughts:

  1. Respect to LeBron James more and more each day. What he has done in his life and in his profession is truly amazing. Now he is going back to the finals where he will likely lose, but he will have already proven to the universe that he is top 2.
  2. I’m settling into a life where I have someone who loves me and has my back and definitely will help me become an us (we already are) and help us reach our highest.