My partner asked me, in a sense, if I was over being a writer. Nope. I am struggling with the idea of sitting down and putting in the hard work these last few days. This is the meat of the thing: If you want to write then you need to sit down and do it. Fear of failure, fear that a project is too big, fear that you suck–all of that is going to be there with you in the writing space, but you gotta fight through it all. This is what it means to be a writer. Like any other job, you have to show up.
So, I am deciding on a two hour block (half of my lasting goal) during which I will write every day until work forces a change of schedule. I’m thinking about 8-10, or within a half hour of that, because it is early enough that I can wake normally and not eat into the time I want to spend with my boys. I should move it up an hour in order to give myself space to fall right into it first thing in the morning. The problem is that my schedule is so shifty that I cannot pick out 2 morning hours to work consistently. I need to shift from month to month. I also feel completely drained in the evenings (see many many previous blogs), so writing long after dark is no longer a possibility.
Butt in Chair. It all comes down to that one thing. I’ve been talking to my students about this 4 part soup of success. Hard work, Talent, Luck, and Life experience. Any two will make you successful–especially if the hard work is one of the two. I have two on that list, so if I get the hard work down I ought to be a damned prolific beast.
Some Thoughts:
- Warriors v. Cavs part 4 is about to start tomorrow. WOW. I’m not excited. Hopefully Lebron goes somewhere like New York next year and carries them to his 9th straight finals.
- Speaking of LJ, I recently heard him listed in the top 3 all time greats, but the other two went unmentioned. I wonder who they are.
- Love matters. Big time.