I think I figured out what it is that bothers me about this place. The other day I came across this meme:
It turns out here is exactly where I live and exactly the sad existence I watch the people I love meet with day in and day out and they are entirely complacent and complicit in the act of it. Binge watching the same old TV shows over and over again while eating the same frozen pizza day in and day out is no way to live, yet it is a life that appears to be the way here. It is in fact ideal, or at least I’m told it is. This is a complacency born of not having hard times or any real difficulties in their lives. This ideal life is what the Lady Talis and I have created by working hard and being strong and recognizing that we need to rise above what we were into what we want to become.
Yet what we have created is little more than a breeding ground for laziness where there is not a care in the world–even for the conditions of the space in which they live, because they know we are going to fix it eventually. This is what people fear when they fear a safety net, but this, what we’ve created, is more than a safety net. It is a black hole from which they have no will, need, or desire to ever emerge from.
I refuse to be sad of whatI have created for myself and what the Lady Talis and I have created for ourselves and for each other. Unfortunately, what we made is what is abused by those who’ve earned nothing. This is parenthood.